Dear Frances Avery
Dear You... Love, Me. | Frances Avery | 6
August 04, 2019 • Dear Frances Avery, Dear You Love Me, Personal
Dear Avery,
It's been awhile since I had the time to write to you. It's probably because we've been spending more time together and you've progressed a lot. AND also, work has not been smooth sailing the past few weeks. I'm really sorry.
I remember writing to you so we can track your speech progress and other new things you learned to do, but it's been months since you stopped your OT classes. You've started going to playschool too!
It's still a struggle to wake you up in the morning, but you are enjoying school so much! You are not like the other kids who starts to throw tantrums at the school door because they don't want parents leaving them. You, you push me away and say "Bye!" the minute your teachers says "Goodmorning, Avery!" And as soon as I pick you up from school, you always, ALWAYS tell me that you had so much or too much fun!
That's what I've always wanted for you and will always want for you anak, to be happy. To be happy in everything that you do and to be happy with all the people in your life.
I may not be able to provide you with a conventional family, but do know that Mommy will always work her hardest to make you happy. Remember that.
One day (and hoping that is in the really really distant future) you will find out how hard it is to be happy or even maintain a decent smile on your face. I want you to go back to this. Go back to the simplest things that make you happy.
When life gives you a hard time and it seems like it's going nowhere ---- Stop, breathe and remember that I love you. And as I always say, Laban lang!
I love you, my princess.
Dear You... Love, Me | Vol. 3 | Frances Avery
July 13, 2018 • Dear Frances Avery, Dear You Love Me, Momma Diaries
I miss you. I really do. I know we haven't been together much lately because Mommy is super busy with work, but I'd like you to know that I miss you every minute of everyday! I only get to be with you less than half a day for the past week and just 3 days the week before.
I'm just happy that I still see that wide fang face smile every time you see me. In a few years time, you'll probably feel bad that I don't spend as much time with you, but let me reassure you that when that time comes, Mommy will make sure that she has much time with you than work. It's just that right now, Mommy needs to do a little more work and hustling so that we're ready when it's school time and when you grow up. Mommy needs to do a little more work so she can provide you with the best things she can. Remember that all that time I don't spend with you, I do it for you.
You've been doing good with therapy too! Your teacher says you talk to him now. Words aren't that clear but you try to talk to him more and even attempt to tell stories. You've improved A LOT in the past 5 months and it's actually Mommy who needs to do a little bit of homework. Your teacher thinks that I may not be consistent with our daily routine and that's all my fault. I promise I'll do better, OK?
Mommy's still at work now, but just finishing up a few things. I cannot wait to see you when I get home! I love you, Avery! <
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This open letter does not wish to accomplish anything. This is merely a series created by Alex Carpio for www.ticktockitslocked.com and for her peace of mind.
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Dear You... Love, Me | Vol. 2 | Frances Avery
May 20, 2018 • Dear Frances Avery, Dear You Love Me, Momma Diaries
Dear Frances Avery,
It's been 3 months since we started with your Occupational Therapy sessions. Your teacher says that you've been improving and that you've been following instructions well during your sessions. Though, your teacher noticed that you get a little impatient with some activities and gets distracted easily. Wonder who you got that from? Hmmm.
You haven't spoken to your teacher yet, just always showing gestures and pointing. However, I did tell your teacher that you're actually very noisy at home. Sometimes with clear words like "dede" "Tiyo D" "Nanan" "Mama" "Coco" "Ouch", most times just mumbling gibberish and shouting. He says that's a good thing. So, we will continue whatever it is that we're doing at home, okay? More bedtime stories and more singing!
It's also been 3 months since we moved out. We stayed at your Mamita's place for almost 2 months and now we're just settling in at the new house with your Tiyo D, Nanan and Tito Kekel. You wake up at 7 to 8 AM in the morning everyday, you give me a kiss and go straight to your Nanan's Room.
Out of all the kids that live in our place, you are most often than not, the noisiest. You shout at the top of your lungs when you play with Sari and you always try to get Punky's attention.
We also got your damaged front teeth pulled out and had flouride varnish! You were so brave at the dentist, my darling princess. The dental aide at the clinic said that a 6-year-old cried more than you did! Well, you did always have a high pain tolerance, which always scares me because when you cry of pain, I know that it's actually VERY painful.
You've been extra clingy too, the past few days. You've been giving me and everyone in the house more hugs and kisses that you usually do. I'm not sure if you're feeling the tension and problems that have been occurring in the family lately, but know this my darling princess --- YOU ARE OUR SUNSHINE. You literally make us happy... when skies are gray :)
Just leave the problems to Mommy and continue to be that little ray of sunshine to me, to us. I love you, my darling.
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This open letter does not wish to accomplish anything. This is merely a series created by Alex Carpio for www.ticktockitslocked.com and for her peace of mind.
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Dear You... Love, Me | Vol. 1 | Frances Avery
April 02, 2018 • Dear Frances Avery, Dear You Love Me, Momma Diaries
Hello! My little lucky charm! Have you read through my previous Momma Diaries entries? You're probably wondering why I started this series just now. It's been roughly a month since we moved back in with your Mamita. A lot has happened and I know that one day, I will probably have to tell you why, how and what happened.
A few weeks ago, (with all pride and yabang) I thought I had it all figured out. Mommy made herself believe that in the future it's all going to be easy peasy since Mom also came from a broken family. I tell myself, "it'd be easy to explain when you grow up" or "I'll cross the bridge when I get there" Sometimes, I also tell myself "Hmm... Mom was a single parent and I turned out okay, I'm sure you will too" However, as days pass it gets harder and harder to grasp everything that has been happening and even harder to try to think of ways as to how I will explain things to you in the future. At night, I think of answers to possible questions you might ask me in the future. I also think of ways how to avoid it, should those tragic questions arise during meal times or bonding times. Then something happened...
A few nights ago, during bedtime. You were lying down between me and Mamita and being your usual self (touching our faces and poking our eyes while drinking your milk) while we were talking. In the middle of a very serious conversation, you suddenly sat up asked me and Mamita to hug you while holding your arms wide open and then you gave us both a very sweet kiss on the cheek. As if telling us not to worry too much and that you love us very much. It gave me so much joy that I cried.
You are 2.5 years old as of writing, my baby girl. You are currently undergoing occupational therapy for your speech delay. You have very few words that you can speak for your age, but at that moment, my princess, I heard you loud and clear.
That night is what brought me to start this series. When you grow older, we will probably fight and have misunderstandings --- believe me, I will forever dread the day when you become a teenager, oh no. --- In those times, I hope you read these. Although I am not exactly sure what I want to achieve in starting this, but I do know this... I hope one day, this will help you understand Mommy and also help you when you also become a Mom in the very very very very very very very very very distant future.
Baby girl, mommy has been through a lot in the past months, but whatever hardships or obstacle I have experienced, it was always you who gave me hope and strength. I hope that despite fact that Mommy and Daddy are no longer together, you never lose the (happy) light that shines within you AND ALWAYS REMEMBER that no matter what, you are the best thing that ever happened to our life.
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Now, enough milk and eat your breakfast! Love you!
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This open letter does not wish to accomplish anything. This is merely a series created by Alex Carpio for www.ticktockitslocked.com and for her peace of mind.
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